A White Feather Day

Saturday, July 16, 2011 at 6:41pm

Some of you might know the story of the white feather. John Lennon told his son (You can watch the videos on you tube.) that if there was an afterlife, he would signal by sending a white feather. Well, if you know how much I love Lennon, you know I will be hanging around chicken coops just to hear the Liverpoolian speak!

Yesterday was Julia (John’s mum) Lennon’s birthday. Or so I thought. I put her pic up as my profile pic, one with John in it as a boy. I also put a couple versions of his song to his mum by that same name. One of my friends on Facebook, Frank, who lives in Guatemala, asked if that was me in the pic with the boy. He thought she was pretty. Julia. I told him who it was. Then, I told him John had married a Powell girl long ago, and I wished he had married the right Powell girl, meaning myself, of course. Just having fun and being silly, you know. But it was a bit haunting that he thought that was me…and that it was John’s mum on what I thought was her birthday. I am not sure if you know what all I believe, but it is complex…yet so simple. I believe we are all one, like Eckharte Tolle teaches. I believe many things that seem conflicting, but to me, they are in perfect harmony. I cannot explain it. And it needs no explanation, because it is a thing of the heart, the spirit.

Today, on my way home from breakfast with Annette, I could feel the presence of Cher at my house. I felt she was calling me…for sure. My cell phone was not ringing. I just saw on the computer where Zoe had called at that time, to tell me they were on their way over. Happens a lot with us. Not so strange. Cher and the grands have been down in New Orleans for a week. And so, when I drove up to the house, I was delighted to see Cher’s car in the driveway, then to see Zoe near it…and Cher around back. I opened the car door, and John Lennon was looking right at me. Zoe had gotten a shirt that said GIVE PEACE A CHANCE with a large artsy design of his face on the front. I could not get out of the car. I just sat there and demanded the shirt. We laughed. I said I could wear it as a ski mask perhaps. Anyway, I told them I had a T shirt of John that they could share. I had ordered it back in October, a lovely, very expensive and light shirt, green, with his face and name. (One of my classmates had sent me extra money and told me to go buy something to wear to the reunion with it!) It was too small for my deebees and made John look quite bug-eyed. So, I got it out and gave it to the girls…telling Cher and Zoe to share it. Still this is not so strange. I love giving them things.

We were cleaning up after a tenant had moved out…and suddenly a small white feather floated down from the sky right in front of my face. Zoe was with me and remained calm as I shouted…”Look! Look! It’s a white feather! Oh Lordy! Oh Goodness! I have been waiting!” I got it to show them and make sure they saw. I reminded them of the white feather promise. (I recalled once when Julian was a guest on a TV program, one floated by them. Also, George Harrison told of how after John had died, they all went for a photography session, and a white peacock appeared out of nowhere to join them. Many more stories…but back to this one.)

Eventually, I waved goodbye and the girls left. On my way inside, I stopped by the mailbox and pulled out a large, square card from Mimi. She had sent it from…guess where…LIVERPOOL. She and Duncan sent this lovely card and each wrote a precious and sweet message to me. I began to cry when I saw that it contained their train tickets, from earlier this month, when they rode from Liverpool to Woking, where Duncan lives in the UK. Also, they had taken pics for me. I was so overwhelmed with it all. A yellow submarine, a picture of the street sign, and the Liverpool John Lennon Airport. I was so grateful and thrilled with the timing of all this. Suddenly, I recalled posting the pic of John and his mum, thinking it was her birthday, and how out of the blue last week, The Liverpool John Lennon Airport started following me on Twitter! Mimi had told me on Facebook that a sign at the airport quotes John’s famous line from Imagine…”Above us only sky…” When I told Mimi that the airport was following me, she told me that Yoko Ono followed her…and that made it even more amazing!

I did some research and found out that yesterday was the day John Lennon’s mother died. This is from The Beatles’ Bible: (I won’t point out all the coincidences, but you will know them when you see them!)

From 1946 John Lennon lived with his Aunt Mimi (Mary Smith) and Uncle George in their house, ‘Mendips’, at 251 Menlove Avenue, Liverpool, after his mother Julia had handed over care of her son to them.

Despite the living arrangements, Julia came to see John almost every day. In 1957 she bought him his first guitar, a cheap Gallotone Champion acoustic “guaranteed not to split”. Julia shared John’s love of rock and roll music, despite Mimi’s disapproval, and saw her son playing in the Quarrymen.

On 15 July 1958, when John was 17, Julia died on Menlove Avenue shortly after leaving Mimi’s house, while crossing the road to get to a bus stop. She was struck by a car driven by a drunk off-duty policeman, PC Eric Clague, who was a learner driver. He was acquitted of all charges and later left the police force to become a postman.

Mrs Lennon just ran straight out in front of me. I just couldn’t avoid her. I was not speeding, I swear it. It was just one of those terrible things that happen.

Eric Clague

John’s childhood friend Nigel Whalley later recounted what happened:

I went to call for John that evening but his Aunt Mimi told me he was out. Mimi was at the gate with John’s mum, who was about to leave. We stood chatting and John’s mum said ‘Well, you have the privilege of escorting me to the bus stop!’ I said ‘That will do me fine. I’ll be happy to do that.’

We walked down Menlove Avenue and I turned off to go up Vale Road, where I lived. I must have been about 15 yards up the road when I heard a car skidding. I turned round to see John’s mum going through the air. I rushed over but she had been killed instantly.

Whalley ran back to Mendips to get Mimi, who cried hysterically as they waited for an ambulance. Julia died at the scene.

I didn’t see John much after that because he became a bit of a recluse. It worried me because, deep down, I wondered whether he blamed me for the accident and was thinking ‘If only Nigel Whalley had stayed a minute longer talking to my mum’. But hindsight is a wonderful thing.

Nigel Whalley

Julia’s death traumatised John, who would later refer to her in the songs Julia, Mother and My Mummy’s Dead. His first son, Julian, was named for her.

Now…what a time it has been! So many connections, it is just as Diane Whaley (who lived a long time in England) says…mindboggling! I am not shocked that Paul McCartney is playing Yankee Stadium this weekend…and I would not be surprised if Ringo himself knocked on the door tonight.

Thanks, John! And Eckhart, who needs form?

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The Easter Cup

Sunday, April 24, 2011 at 4:12pm

I was late for Mass, but somehow knew that God would not mind my taking a few moments to deliver goodie bags with eggs to my neighbors. The church was all dressed in white outside. The colors within were just spectacular. A risen Jesus reflected just above my head in shades of rose. I stared at Him, letting Him know how proud I was of His Glory.

I noticed beautiful children all about. Pink satins swished in the pews. Soft blue crepe with sparkling beads and lovely yellow linens. I had even seen a man in a banana suit on a sunshine colored bicycle riding to church on the way. It was Easter Day for sure. I was all happy and hopeful. Then the melody came.

Zoe’s voice was distinct. It lilted over the others, perhaps known so well by her grandmother. Easily recognized. My eyes found her. She was signing a song with long, lovely arms. Her hair pressed gently about her loving face. Suddenly there was no one in the church but her. I listened and then everyone returned.

All through the sermon, I tried to find Cher, to glimpse her. I decided to go to Communion and bring my bag. On the way back, surely I could find her and sit with her. Zoe was now nestled with the choir at the side of the altar. But where was Cher? Father Miller’s brilliant sermon took us to a hotel in Jerusalem, where even turning on a light switch is considered work on the Sabbath. I became lost his wonderful words. He took us all to the tomb and we saw the stone had been rolled away. I thought that it was indeed a glory day, this day.

On the way to Communion, I continued my search for Cher. I would spot one lovely girl and then another. But none were my dear Cher. Surely she was there. We had agreed to meet. I was wishing my vision was better when I noticed of the two lines going to Communion, Father had the shorter one. I changed sides in the church and went to him for my Eucharist. After, I noticed the line forming to receive the Blood of Christ. Though I never went down that side of the church much, I got in the line. Suddenly, I looked up and beheld the person with the chalice. “The Blood of Christ, ” she said. My eyes filled with tears. I had found her, after all that searching. No. She had found me. Serendipity.

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Bless me, Father..

Tonight was church supper with all my downline. I love thier place of worship. It was yummy! Beef tips, field peas, salad, rolls, and even Twinkie pudding! Afterwards, my daughter invited me to go to the Penance service. I was happy to go, as it had been a while since my last confession. In fact, I told the priest (after waiting on the long pew of gigling kids) that it was hard to recall how many months!
My granddaughter later would remind me that we are not supposed to TELL our sins to others after confession. However, this was perhaps the most enjoyable reception of the sacrament that I have ever received, and it deserves a recount!
After the priest told me not to worry about the time that had elapsed, I felt so comfortable. I had planned on going behind the little purple curtain, but for some reason, I sat in the chair, face-to-face with this precious priest.
Every sin I reported was greeted with such grace and understanding. This was not my my teenage confessional. I told him that I had found a five dollar bill and kept it, knowing that my dad taught us that just because you find it, that does not make it yours! He replied that it was not a sin. I was thrilled.
Next, I told him that I lost my temper sometimes, and yelled at the cat. He chuckled and said that it was understandable. (I wish I knew what the cat thought!) Then, I confessed that I had missed Mass because I wasn’t feeling good. He assured me there was no sin there. I also added that once it was just bad weather and my lack of vision in such that caused me to miss, and guess what? STILL not a sin. It was amazing. I felt like Mother Teresa!
I even brought up that someone had been mean to me and I was working on forgiveness. He assured me that he knew I was trying, or I would not have brought it up. I added that I can get frustrated, angry and fussy, and his smile conveyed the story of being only human.
The fact that I had eaten two Twinkie puddings instead of one, I thought might make him see my gluttony. But again, he said that was not a sin. Then, I argued that I was trying to lose weight. Still, I was good…even in LENT!
Finally, I told him that sometimes I felt lonely. Yes, that too was how we all get, and in these times, I should turn to God to ease the pangs. I told him God was my man and thought it better perhaps to leave that one there.
When it was time for him to assign me a penance, he asked me what I would like to do. I already say the Rosary daily, so I told him it might take me some time to think of something. (I know good and well what it will be! ONE dessert instead of two! But…is that enough penance? I really do not need any dessert at all!) ((Sigh.))
I prayed quietly in the church, watching my innocent grandchildren, the eldest on her knees in prayer following her own confession, the only grandson, nervously waiting in line with his pal, the little twins, fresh from their First Communion with so little to tell!
The urge to skip came over me as I moved outside. I didn’t, but my heart was skipping and my soul was turning the jumprope. There I suddenly realized, I had forgotten about my use of bad language. Now, granted, it is usually just me fussing at the TV, so no one but the poor cat…again…is harmed. I would have confessed that had I thought of it, but he probably would have said, “What the hell? Don’t worry about it.” Always as a child, I felt clean as a whistle after the Sacrament of Reconciliation. Some things never change…except perhaps that I was let off too easy. ;o)

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SUPERMOON!

WOW! Tonight is the night. I recall almost twenty years ago, returning from NSU on I-49 with Sister Rose. We had been to see my daughter at college. Suddenly, this giant moon filled the sky to my right. I mean it literally filled it, from top to bottom! It was frightening and I begged Sister to look! She was like, “That’s nothing. Watch the road!” I begged again, telling her I had NEVER seen such a thing in my life. She just said, “Blarney! I have seen that big moon before!” Now that I recall how much older she was, she probably HAD seen it. But I had never! Tonight, I wonder if it will be like it was then. If so, it is a very exciting thing to see! It was bright last night and luminous. However, this other thing is like a close-up view…a giant planet-like moon filling a huge void! Happy Full Moon!

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Ash Wednesday

There is something so old timey about it. Going into the desert on Ash Wednesday. Leaving all that fanfare behind and entering a place that is holy and quiet. I think I will always love the Catholic faith. Father Testa said it was Mama’s greatest gift to us. Oh, I will love the others as well. I have often said I could be any religion and still be happy…well not quite! But this one fits well enough. I will still treasure all the religions of the world that I taught for so many years. I respect others and their rights to believe as they wish. That makes religion redemptive. Of course it is spirituality that is the real test…the true love of my life. Seeing God…or that higher power in all things. Mass today at noon with Leonard and then a fish fry. Tonight…shrimp gumbo with my dear and precious family. No snacks. No sweets. Life is so rich.

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It’s not just me!

The LIVER!

His work and influence continues thirty years later!

Every human being falls short in some way. I am convincing myself that I have company. (Heehee!) The perfect person with the perfect life has left the planet. So, what to do?
I have been pondering some of John Lennon’s last words. Two quotes in particular. One, was that his work would not be finished until he was dead and buried. Prophetic, perhaps, and maybe even bordering on not so true. His work continues long after he is gone. The recent poetry contest about his life is evidence.
The other words he spoke that day indicated that he was very happy to be here, to be alive. What larks! He was doing what he did best and was glad to be doing it. Shouldn’t we all be? This week recalls the 30th anniversary of his death. But, he lives…in song and motivation and peace efforts. We all need to live like that. Being alive, fully alive, until death comes for us. Don’t let the MS stop you. Don’t let the unfair nature of life stop you. Don’t let false friends and rotten circumstances stop you. We are all in this together! Let us live!

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Merry MS!

I was just thinking about Christmas with you know what. I am going to laugh instead of cry from now on. Trying to wrap gifts, the dexterity is a factor. I am like, why do I not do what millions do and drop tissue and gift in the bag? Lordy! I will go bag shopping after the holiday! Then, I could not recall what I wrapped for whom…with the cognitive…so I made a notebook to put all the gifts in and record what is done so far. I have made lists before…but now I am trying to remember who I get gifts for in the first place. I think it is almost everybody in the free world. What about the others? Then, I started feeling a wee bit sad that Mama’s little Christmas tree…the ceramic one with the tiny glowing bulbs…is by my bed now…making life easier for me instead of for her. She rests in National Cemetery and greets newcomers at the Pearly Gates. I won’t be chopping down and dragging anything in like I did all those early years. I won’t even be shopping in the Christmas tree lots in town for the best shaped one. I think they might have all closed down anyway. But what I will be doing…is blessing every bulb…for I can still see each one. I will be thanking God that I can still drive…whether other motorists agree or not! I will be claiming the FAVOR of GOD on my kooky blond head…knowing that God is at my back, His arms extended, ready for the embrace. MERRY MS!

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